A Pamper Day

I love a pamper day. I love a day to treat ‘me’ however that may be. Everyone has something. Everyone has that one thing that fills them up, that makes the coming week bearable. For me, that’s spending a day on my own, with all the little things that make me happy. I don’t look at my phone, I don’t do anything that doesn’t feel good, I take it easy.

For a long time, I had a hard time with taking a day off like this. We get told constantly that we have to always be doing something. I always had this fear of being ‘lazy’ but I needed a day. I needed a self care day to just shut myself off from the real world but I was worried about being a lazy couch potato. I’ve come to learn that taking a day to yourself is not a bad thing.

So I sleep in for as long as I want, I make a big breakfast, I tidy up my space if I need to, I watch a TV show or a movie or whatever else I want, I do whatever I need to make me happy.

I love having a bath. I love bath bombs, I love painting my nails, I love using face masks, I love reading and writing, I love a cup of tea (Serenity Now from David’s Tea is heaven in a cup).

If you need a day off, take a day. Take more than a day. Your mental health is the most important thing.

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06/08/16

To make a prairie it takes a clover and one bee,—
One clover, and a bee,
And revery.
The revery alone will do
If bees are few.
-Emily Dickinson

I think that I’ve been feeling a little lost lately. Life is crazy right now and I, like many adults in our current world, spend the days going to a job that doesn’t make me happy, making food that just fills me, watching TV shows and movies that I don’t need to think about, and going through all of that the next day. And the next day and the next day and the next day.

Lately, I’ve been thinking back to the the things that made me happy before the real world happened. Before stress and work and everything else got in the way.

I’d like to get those things back into my life. I had dreams of writing a novel, I got so lost in whatever book I was reading, that I didn’t even know what the weather was. I listened to a new album and felt that the musician was somehow able to capture my soul in the lyrics.

I’m tired of the monotony. I’m tired of waking up every morning with a knot of anxiety in my stomach with an urge to just run away. I want passion and love and excitement. I want to wake up everyday and have something to look forward to.

I want to let lost in stories and poetry and art and pictures. I want to write something that will mean something to someone. Maybe it’s just a matter of adding one thing into every day that makes getting up in the morning something to look forward to, not a chore.

Maybe it’s a matter of finding what little steps are needed to get to my goal. Maybe it’s working on finding classes to take online or getting rid of some unneeded everyday stress.

Maybe it’s just a matter of finding the clover and the bee, whatever that is, to build and create a beautiful prairie. A piece of inspiration.